Today you’re supposed to wear orange for suicide awareness day, or self harm. Either way, supporting something like this, and seeing everyone’s posts on here, just makes a difference in people’s lives, you all matter. A year ago, I had been cutting for 6 years straight, and today here I am a year later, with just scars, stories of my past, but I haven’t relapsed, even when I feel like I want to die, or feel as if I should self harm, there’s a huge part of me now that’s wanting to stay strong, and prove that we can all overcome our battles. Our struggles define us, they shouldn’t break us, we shouldn’t allow them too, yet sometimes they’re the things that tear us apart the most. The past few months, I’ve started slipping back into my depression, which is something I’ll probably always have to deal with, but it’s something I’m willing to fight, but it’s killed me feeling okay one second, then fucked up the next. And I just want anyone to know, if you’re reading this, and you’re here, I’m proud of you. I’m glad you’re alive, I’m glad your heart is still beating, and I’m glad you’re fighting, and even if you feel alone, you’re not. I’m always a message away, I’ll listen to any story, any person. <3
I wish I was easier to love, but I come with so much baggage. I have too much going on in my mind constantly.. I’m hard to love, and I haven’t found a single person that can handle me.